I Still Wonder What If

What if I had stayed in my safe environment, secured by a generous salary and job security for as long as I wanted it.

 

What if I had listened to my inner critic, and decided not to self-publish my first book.  I still think it ain’t that great, but it’s my book.  And I wrote it because I believed in the process of putting my ass in the chair every morning and doing the work.  And it was the best I could do at the time.


What if I had decided to ignore the advice of a family member, who suggested that maybe I Move My Cheese.




And finally, what if I had spent so many nights working on my books instead of boozing and playing video games.


The answers are simple.  I would have been a different man, in a different place, with a different woman.  And I would not be nearly as fulfilled as I am today.


It’s because I took the plunge and gave up that generous salary.  I was suddenly forced to make things happen. To make the change I wanted to see in my world.  To be free from the misery of the rat race. I don’t do drama very well, so I can’t stab a coworker in the back.  But I can write a nasty little thriller where the characters in my book stab each other...in the back or elsewhere.


This is because sometimes there are universal truths that we should all adhere to.  And while not all of us have the means to leave the salary and the job, slowly moving away from it is okay too.


You see my point.  I know you do. I know it because I’ve read your work.  And all of us are espousing the same stories. Be Free and make money freelancing.  Or, I left a great career to pursue my life traveling abroad.  This is because sometimes there are universal truths that we should all adhere to.  And while not all of us has the means to leave the salary and the job, slowly moving away from it is okay too.


We are truly the masters of our own destinies.  We control our own fates. Enough of the world is caught up in the terrible business of human evil.  Slave trading and child labor. Sex crimes, violence, and corrupt scandals across the entire globe. None of this makes a case for the human race being redeemed, but it does magnify how lucky we are to be able to tell our stories, free from slavery, or violence, or the awful tendencies of man.

  

So tell your stories and be grateful for taking that leap.  I don’t have many regrets, and the ones I carry with me I have long since come to terms with.  So now I write, moving forward and never looking back.


Yes, I still wonder what if.  But only as a way to spark the next bit of drama going on in my next great thriller.  It’s called Grain.  Want to read a sample?

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